Clarifications and a sunday meme’s

In regards to yesterday’s post, I was more ranting about the day then lost on what todo about the bullies, this is in no way the first time this has happened with at the very least Molly/Jen. I am not going to roll over and drool at there feet begging for their acceptance. I have other friends and ones who are less flighty. Additionally I have other people who care about me and I have no reason to be around those turds any longer.  But in another note, I made a lovely batch of chocolate chip cookies for myself and possibly Erica if she is interested in having sweets for once ^.^

EDIT August 2nd: Got accepted to the quilting bee. Have been running around completely psyched all day. Thanks QBEE for making my day really special and wonderful.

My parents are enjoying our lake house as noticeable by the relaxing pictures they sent to me via email. But here is my Sunday morning Meme for you guys. This meme comes to us from Sunday Stealing.

1. Was your dad named after anyone? Nope but he has a name similar to a famous person.

2. What do you think is the minimal age to get married? 25

3. What’s the longest time that you‘ve been involved with the same person? Well if you mean romantically, that would have been a year and a half. Where as with a regular friend, I have been Sam and Miranda(Not yesterdays  Miranda, a different Miranda.) Since I was about twelve years old. Making them my longest continuous friendship in my life.

4. What actor/actress do you consider hot at the moment? I don’t really follow actors or actresses >.>

5. What is you favorite album by a band? Can’t think of one right now x.x

6. What is your favorite album by an individual artist? Can’t think of one right now x.x

7. What is something that you‘d rather be a bit dirty? I really don’t mind if there is grime on my bicycle, less chance someone would like to steal it.

8. What was the last TV show that you watched? Meerkat Manor

9. How many people have you met from the blogosphere? Met? I am not sure if I have physically met anyone from the internet however, people from the blog world whom I have known for awhile would be my net sisters.. Who are they? Miranda L., Candy/Samwise, Izzy/Emmy, and Jenjen.

10. What’s your philosophy on life? Enjoy yourself, be safe and goofy, don’t let yourself grow up too fast.

11. Do you think prescription drugs are over prescribed? Not particularly.

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest? Probably.

13. What is your favorite memory in the last year? Doing a snow angel this past winter.

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure? Laying on the couch playing on the computer. Working on my blog and talking to my net sisters.

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: I am a profient archer, and will be posting a bunch of pictures in regards to this in the coming weeks. That and I can bark realistically.

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the ‘world peace etc’ malarky) – what are they? The ability to fly, Ability to use magic and have a washing machine/dryer in my apartment. GOD I HATE HAVING TO A DIFFERENT FLOOR TO WASH MY FRICKEN UNDIES!

17. Who would you want to get together with and make a cake? Samwise, Jenjen, Miranda, Emmy, and Erica.

18. Which country is your spiritual home? USA. Sitka Alaska

19. What is your big weakness? Animals. I melt for them. But I melt most for Cockatiels.

20. Do you think Judd Corizan is a good person? Who is this? o.o; Never heard of him or her.

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school? Science

22. Describe your accent: Californian

23. If you could change anything about yourself, would you? I would make my hair as red as a weasley.

24. What do you wear to sleep? It depends on how I feel. Not that I am going to tell you on a public blog!

25. What is your favorite casual outfit to wear? Capri’s and a short sleeve patterned shirt. Plus all the required undergarments. Now I wear the capri’s because most regular pants are too long and capri’s are just the right length xD

26. Do you use cigarettes or alcohol? Never have, never will.

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? I’d leave you alone since I have never met you. If you were one of my net sisters, I would cater to your every desire.

28. Rate the memes that you play generally. This is my first meme, so 5 out of 5!

Goodbye Miranda, Never again my friend Jen/Molly/Allie

There was a book that I like to think about in reference to these three girls behavior of whom gave me a vicious case of the silent treatment yesterday on what was suppose to be a happy, goodbye party to our social group leader Miranda.

I’ll try to put this into perspective. I have significant problems with social skills, inability to read complex body language and manners puts me at a distinct disadvantage with socially adept individuals and those with restricted behavior patterns. This in turn puts me at the absolute lowest rung of the social latter. Not that I am in any way a bad person or uninteresting to talk to. I am just a clumsy dork.

So me and Miranda leave early to have some time alone and go to a coffee shop. We both get Starbucks drinks. I got a venti frappachinos  and she got a red colored ice tea of some kind and we talked about how the year has gone for both of us. At about 4 in the afternoon. She leaves to go meet the other girls at the light rail and I wait at the coffee shop to meet up with them when they return to go to Michael’s art supply store and Petco(Miranda has her dog there to meet us.)

I sit in a king soopers with Jen and we argue the entire time Miranda is gone. Jen repeatedly rubbing in that Molly doesn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore and that she isn’t my friend anymore either. Then she reverts to a power struggle behavior where she insists I call her Jennifer other then Jen(What everyone else I know calls her by. Including her parents.) Miranda arrives with Allie and Molly.

The clique is complete and I am left with only Miranda to talk to for the rest of the evening. So we go see her dog, have a group picture taken and go to Michaels. At Michaels nobody but Miranda is interested to go look at the art supplies with me and the other girls end up buying a dish, and some bubble makers. When it is time to go, it is pouring rain and none of us have umbrellas.

We walk through the rain, I gain a slight bit of revenge through splashing the group with the water from a puddle, soaking Molly, and slightly drenching Jen, Allie and Miranda.

The entire group looks like we stepped into the shower when we arrive at a pizza place. I try to sit next to Molly but she rejects the idea. So I am next to Miranda and everyone else is on the other side of the booth. I really used to consider Molly a friend of mine, but her rejection of even sitting next to me, broke my heart. I don’t know what I did to get such hate from her, nor why Allie hates me too. But I put my head on my plate during dinner, sob to myself throughout then I take a taxi to return to my apartment after the entire group ditches me at the pizza place.

EDIT: Miranda did try to talk to Allie,Molly and Jen, but I never heard or noticed any result of said intervention. I appreciate her attempt all the same and will sincerely miss her as my mentor. Hope she enjoys her new internship outside CLE.

Other then the issues with my college success program’s social group, I have been doing well here in Colorado. Finals are this week, and I have to complete a portfolio of my work during my entire semester of English class, which shouldn’t be too hard. My African violets are doing well, several have new buds on them and will be flowering in the next few days. Pictures will come with them too!

My folks are at my deceased Grand Mother’s house in the country for the next week or so and I suppose are having a great time without me(Believe me–I wish I could be there with them, more then can be described in tactful words.), going swimming in the lake and riding on the various boats that she had owned when she was alive .

Erica has gotten me addicted to deviantart.com’s pixel adoption organizations. I have a few plugs below including one of her own critters. You can view these on both Erica’s and Mine Deviantarts, favorite folders. Look forward to hear from you guys sometime soon.

A tribute to dracodoptables with a Cheshire cat belonging to Erica. Click the picture to get your own muse pet.

Yuuki, my male pied raven should gryphon. Click the picture to get a shoulder gryphon!

Fall approaches, semester ends already…

Wow… I haven’t blogged in so long I don’t even know where to begin. So many things have happened and so much has changed that I’m not sure if I can fit it all into a single post.

Basically I’m just living my life, having fun and taking care of my 16 different plants in my apartment (African Violets). Intermittenly I have been hanging out with Erica, I see Katie off and on and once in a blue moon, Molly/Jen decide sporadically that I am not so terrible and am worthy of their flighty friendship. On the internet I don’t have to deal with body language or subtle cues, due to not being able to see the other person(s) which makes it a lot easier to keep and maintain friendships.

So yeah, I was licking a postage stamp earlier today. It’s a natural process that occurs when sending out a message though snail mail. And sometimes, if you’re unlucky, a very quizzical and thought provoking process at that. So the glue I was licking tasted horrible but I needed to send a check to a certain friend, who can probably guess I am talking about her, for being incredibly helpful. She doesn’t have a website at the moment but she and her friend Emmy, are working with Jenjen to drag a website off the ground. I’d probably move over and join them if I wasn’t really happy with the url name I have here. I mean it is almost like I am saying I am a dreaming artist, yup that’s me! I can’t wait to see what kind of website Samzorz and Emmy whip up. I have known the three of them as web designers for the last 8 years. They got me hooked on the process and I just can’t give it up. I love making and maintaining websites.

Summer summer summer….

Days roll on by. The weather has been quite warm lately with scattered thunderstorms and short bits of heavy rain. I do my best in class and have been getting along moderately well with my peers. It seems like the summer is galloping by and that only too soon.

Me and the friend I hoped to be roommates with will not end up being together. I voiced my concerns to the staff and they agreed it would probably be best to stay where I am. I seem to drive many friends crazy with my clingyness but what other way does a person have to keep a friend and prevent them from proverbially running away? Maintaining friendships has always been a struggle for me.

Haven’t been talking to my folks as much, due to not really knowing what to talk about. More to talk about tomorrow I guess?

Summer Semester

I am at a toss up of feelings and desires. For one I greatly want a roommate and I have found what I believe to be an ideal candidate. Yet what worries me is that it sounds like it is going to be a one semester ordeal and I would really like a more permanent situation. I have been having this bump around in my head for almost two months now and it bothers me enough that I can’t get myself to talk about it cause I really want the roommate thing to work out.

In other news, two months ago my blessed little dog died and I am still rather melancholy in that regard. Within the same time frame I lost one of my so-called perfect friends. A girl whom I still adore beyond typical measure. I wish she would give me another chance are friendship, yet her refusal, for a second chance is just another spear in my spine.

Home on break

It has really been nice to be home, and see my family for awhile. To not have to worry about neighbor’s being loud or having to wear a gosh darn key chain around my neck which makes me look like a fricken janitor.

I honestly don’t know what to say or.. do. I’m just bored. Not that being bored is a bad thing. It is great to have tv here since I don’t have that at the apartment, that and I can hang out with Licklick while my parents and brother are out doing there 9-4 work day’s in work or school respectively. Went to a few museums, art events, farmers markets, my archery lessons, bike rides with dad, etc etc. I have been having a really good time and I don’t particularly want to go back to colorado anytime soon. I just wish my little dog was here with me. Its been really strange not to have her zipping around my feet and wanting to get up on my lap, and or be only like two feet away from me at all times. I miss my dog.

Willa wonder dog also known as Biddy, bidlock, bidbid…

My dog died today, I have considered my dog to be my sister and really don’t know what to do with myself considering her death. I had wanted to fly home and see Willa one last time, but that isn’t possible. My parents have already given her away to be cremated. So much for having a taxidermy mount of my dog to be with me for the rest of my life.

Jen/Molly had another episode of taking something really inconsequential and deciding they hate me over it. They had left their apartment door open and unlocked. I turned the lock to ready and left it there while my bf at the time, closed the door. Molly/Jen had left their keys in there apartment and were completely ape shit about the whole deal. I could really care less. They should have had their key’s with them when they left the apartment but obviously they weren’t that intelligent to know that. /ends rant

TREES! Yes, and lots of them. It’s that time of year ago.. my favorite time of the year. That part of the year called spring! -does the annual spring dance thingymajig- weeee! Oh yea, back to the point. It’ss spring! Ooohhh, right? Right! /ends the false happy mood. Hope to talk to you guys again soon.

Where have I been these last few?

I’m still lurking around the net as usual, just not as often as I was before. I update my Twitter pretty religiously, but when it comes to making a full blog, I’m hopeless as of right now. I think the whole conformity of only have 140 characters to write about is rotting me from the inside out when it comes to having the creativity to make a decently long blog. Nonetheless, I do want to get back in to blogging, not just for my internet friends , but also for personal logging of my life. I like looking back through my blog entries and reading about stuff, and I’m sure I can relate to a lot of people on here in that idea. I hope everyone has enjoyed looking fail layout involving my attempt at a wordpress theme. Hopefully though, I will have a new layout sooner or later. It would be weird if I just left this up the rest of the year, considering how horrible it is. Talk soon!

Today it shall be called ‘Content and stuff’ Day. It’s a party. Free balloons and party hats! Ok, maybe not. I have decided to have like nothing for you, the visitor. I want it to be so I can have something I like, and appreciate it. And you can, too! I’m going to have things such as photographs, art , both graphic and umm, real paintings, and maybe some poetry. MAYBE. Don’t you think the name in-color would be perfect for that kinda stuff? If you want art or poetry head over and look at the christmas cards I made on deviantart .

More about my life now. No school, because I didn’t feel like going. Wow such a scholar I am?

Bleh, I am getting sick of this layout already. It looks pretty crappy, doesn’t it? And don’t be afraid to tell the truth. I don’t care.